Friday, February 5, 2016

Joy

Each year of my life I recognize more and more how drama and negativity need to become
a thing of the past.


Concentrating on all that is good will bring peace.   


This time of year I begin to plan for the years good stuff.  The vacations.  The family time together.  


It keeps me sane through the gray days that threaten to steal my joy.


So, I have our beach condo's reserved for August.  It will be a little different this year.  Some who were there last year will not be returning.  But new faces will take the place of old ones.  We had a blast last year and hope for more of the same.


We never know what life will bring.  But we can be sure that it will be full of surprises.  Last year I lost my brother to cancer in January and then in December I lost my sister to kidney failure.   I was alone with my sister when she died.  Words could not describe my grief.  But, life goes on.    


Life can be crippling at times but after the storm comes the rainbow.  The good stuff.  Like watching the sun rise and set over the sea.  Breathing in the warm ocean air.  Laughing so hard that I cry.  Playing silly games with my grandchildren.  Sharing in life with my husband and my kids.  Being still and feeling God's presence.  

There is no doubt that my life's journey will include more loss and sadness and I try to mentally prepare for this.   Sometimes....  Many times...  I have to close my eyes and say, "God, change my heart that I can sweep life's bitter, empty nothingness under the rug...  and I can live my life experiencing Your joy."   And in time, he does just that.